Whatever Days.

I've had such a tiring week I've had enough. Seriously. All I wanna do is sleep. 

Either that, or talk with people that actually care. Cause you know, I know all these fucking people who cut themselves it's crazy. I'm a psycho. I want to cut a heart into my arm. I think it would look nice. Man. Even though I've gotten over my problems I still feel so shitty. Idk why. But I fucking hate it. 

There is a guy in my spanish class that looks like Brian. Even then, people say 'oh you look like a cute couple'. Fucking oh my god leave me alone. I am NOT going to start loving anyone again for a long time. I don't give a shit, my heart may be sewn up but it's not even beating. So just leave me alone. Truth is, I CAN'T love anyone else. So just Stfu and leave me alone. I haven't talked to Kenny in a few days. I guess I miss him. I want a long hug. A hug that means something, that they care. Cause no one fucking does. No one loves me. Who would love a cheating bitch.

But I miss him. I do. 

I want banana creme pie. 

I still want vodka..