Eyes of Me.

Fuck. 

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. That's right. 

I WANT HIM. I DO. GOT IT.

I've Touched a dick :D But I haven't sucked one. I don't give Blowjobs sorry. 

You know I've noticed changes in my eyes. Like, from time to time I would look at my eyes. I noticed how they've. Gotten shinier. I remember when my eyes looked so dark almost nothing was lit. But then, my eyes, I can see all the memories and I can see my reflection in them now. It's. Weird. 

I remember when I looked at his eyes. They looked so.. hurt. So dark, so lost. So, I wondered to myself, how.. did they end up that way. That I looked at his eyes and I couldn't find the reasons for the darkness, for the dimness in them. I still do wonder. What happened to him, to make his eyes so hurt and disturbed. The memories that I not know of, and that he had kept track of everyday. I couldn't see into it. Even though I wished for it.

I touch guys hair because secretly I love the texture and want to touch it forever.

I hug guys because I want to feel loved and connect with them.

I poke guys for fun and to smile myself and make them smile. 

I smile at guys because they make me feel like I matter.

I grab a guys arm, so I can show them what I have to offer.

I laugh at guys because they still make me happy. 

I hit guys to show them that they've hurt me a little inside.

I cuddle next to certain guys hearts, to feel their heartbeat like a lullaby that comforts me.

I hold certain guys hands. To help them find themselves to be happy with me. 

I look into certain guys eyes. To find the hidden truth they keep to themselves.

I kiss certain guys. To feel like they love and care for me. 

I love certain guys. Because they've showed me that I'm important to them.

I put certain guys in front of myself. Because I care about them, more then I'll ever care about myself.

I've cut myself for certain guys. To show them that I blame myself for everything that has happened to them. 

Honestly. I love Guys. No one can stop me. I just honestly wish, they would love me back.

Haha..