I'm Sorry.

I'm so sorry..sorry..

I wish I didn't have to do what I did. 

I wish I could scream.. but I hold it in. 

I'd give everything, anything, to apologize to you in person. 

Anything. To tell you how sorry. I am. To apologize. 

For EVERYTHING. Everything I did to hurt you in so manys ways. 

But I know. I can't see you again. 

Just for an instant to see your face. Tell you everything on my mind. 

Scream to you. Cry in a flood of tears. How unbearablely sorry. How you don't have to be sorry. 

But I know for a fact. I'll never see you. So.. there's nothing I can do. 

If I could redo it. I would make sure. You never got hurt.. 

Just that.

Im sorry..I'm so sorry.. for everything. If only to say it to your face.. 

Brian.

I'm sorry. How many times that word comes up. I could say it a million times. But still. It wouldn't do anything.. but still. I apologize for everything I did. Everything. All the memories. All of it..