Did You Forget.

I know I'm not supposed to say this but. It's like he doesn't even care anymore. I remember he used to. A lot. But now. It's like nothing. This will be a really long post about my memories. The memories I will never forget with Kenny. That I can never forget, that he probably has.

I remember the first time I met him. I was blushing so hard it was so embarrassing. But we had a good time. It was..fun.

When he gave me my Kenny plushie, we saw a movie. I remember when I got scared and hid on his shoulder, and when he teased me I hit him with Kenny too. Such a Fun Day.. I still have the movie ticket on my wall.

We went to the beach together. We swam in the ocean. I was afraid of being swept into the current I held onto him for dear life haha. Even though I can swim pretty good. I buried him in sand and he had his sunglasses on. He wus all covered in sand when he got out and then he threw sand at me and then I was covered with it D; We layed on the beach, it was such a perfect sunny day, I remember his words "Beats Mapling any day" haha..

The first time he came to my house. We hung out. First time I got to ride in his car. I loved it more than anything. We were at my house, then my mom got home. I got him to escape the house through the back door. Sucha close call. 

When we had a fight, cause I started dating Brian. He wanted me all to himself. He would always say 'minemineminemine' and so on. But It was the first time he told me that he's been holding up a wall to keep everyone out. That I wasn't strong enough to break it down. Eventually we made up. 

Then the first time I went to his house. I liked him more than I liked his dog though. Lol. We hung out. Had a bunch of laughs. He bought me thongs LOL. Then I had my first taste of drunkness. Hah. That's when things went weird. 

The recent memories, where he came on some days to pick me up, when me and him would just hang out. 

Then. The day came when I slept over at his house. I felt so safe.. so protected, that nothing could harm me. We went to dye his hair. I bleached it all and he was blond. SuperSaiyan! (: Then he dyed it pink. 

When it was pink. I remember the next time. The day that has scarred me for life. His friend came over and we went to see the movie 'Push'. After we got back, we drank. Bunches and oodles of fun. Laughs and Giggles. Then it happened. We weren't innocent. We both wanted it. We both now, don't and won't regret it. The next morning I told him 'You broke my vagina stupid! D:<' haha.. I felt no different than I was before. But I had to break the news to Brian.

Then the day came when he went to see his girlfriend. I got mad at him. We had another fight. It was another of those fights. Then. 

When I broke up with Brian. I was in a depressive state. Crying. Cutting. Not Eating or Sleeping. Kenny was okay. He didn't tell his girlfriend. But he helped me. The days that he came and. I cried on his shoulder. I cried so hard in front of him. I never cry in front of people. I held onto him tight, wondering why. Those sad memories, one day when he came. I couldn't speak. I couldn't talk at all. The words were just stopped, and I couldn't breath a single word. I just looked at him with tears in my eyes. It's all I did.. Even when he came to comfort me, when he left. I couldn't even say goodbye. He took care of me. 

Then after time.. he stopped talking to me. I talked to him. Now.

Everything is so dull. So stopped and he doesn't talk to me anymore. He's not even replying. My texts, my calls, my IMs. So I felt a bit, ditched. Even though The one thing he always said when he comforted me was 'I will never ditch you'. I still wish for those days.

I wish for the days when he hugged me tight. When he comforted me. When he would make me laugh so hard my sides would hurt. So. Did He Forget.

Did You Forget Me. Leaving me here while you are busy with your newfound life.

Not talking to me anymore. 

Are you going to forget the past? Through the Almost 2 years I've known you Kenny. Are You. 

Forgetting Me. Just, not caring anymore. 

Then come see me one more time. Just so I can say goodbye. Even though I desperately, really. Don't want to. This time, is it the end? I won't call you. You aren't asking anything of me. So when the day comes that YOU call me. I'll be here to answer. Cause, truth is. You mean a lot to me. Much more. That I know it isn't fake. That I wish. 

You would never Forget Me..

Cause Honestly.. I love him. Even though Everyday I tell myself. No. No I don't.

But I know its there. And I wish it wasn't. Cause I tell myself that I don't.

I don't want to. I desperately. Dont want to. I don't want to love him.. I wish I didn't. So badly.