Sacred Love.

I wish he would find the happiness in himself. 

I'm just crying like a child..

I wish I could scream.  

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A part of me. I remember I used to say that "Brian, I'll always love in you in some way". I figured that out today. That it's true. Its true I don't love you like I used to but. I still do care. And Now I realize that it's true. I always will. Whenever he is brought up. Talking To Him. My heart springs and remembers. 

I can't hide it. But I don't love him. Not in that way anymore. Never again. 

All I wish. I remember one time Eric asked me what would happen if I broke up with Brian. I told him. "As long as he's happy". And I stand by that comment. 

Brian. As Long as you are happy. All I wish is for your happiness. Just be happy. With yourself. With someone else. Please. 

I'm perfectly fine. I am okay. Even though i dont love anyone, I make an effort to be happy. So he should too. I wish he would. I really do. 

Just like Strong by Jordyn Taylor.

"That You, were the one that made me strong;
you made me stand up on my own,
with every cruel intention, you helped me find my 
independence.
yeah it's all because of you, 
that i have the strength i do,
to turn my pain to passion, instead of crashin'.
Boy i'm thankin' you."

So stand strong. Instead of Crashing down. 

Brian. I've told you so many times to not be sorry and I mean it. 

Brian. I admit. You are something else. Someone that changed me for the better. Taught me lessons. 

I still love you in different way. So You should stand Strong, be Happy.

And. Live.