Silent Cries.

The pain hurts doesn't it. 

The lumps in my throat, the aches in my heart, the hurt in my eyes. Why does it always end so badly. 

Crying so hard. Every night. Just to relief the pain inside. Just to keep going and tell myself I don't love him. All the days go by not talking to him. The days not spending with him. The tears roll down my face. My heart isn't breaking. I still. Still. Losing those close to me. 

I wish he wouldn't leave.. Even though I knew from the start that he was like this, but I still stood by his side until now. All the times he made me cry. 

All those days I cried for him. All the times when I hugged my Kenny tight, and cried my eyes out for him, but I dealt with it day after day, because inside the pain made me stronger, and because he really did. Make me happy. But now he's gone, it feels like an empty hole. When Brian stole it. When I couldn't love. When I didn't feel anything, no happiness, no sadness, no nothing. Just blank. Nothing at all.

This time, I'm losing the one person who was closest to me as a guy. I keep crying. Even though I really don't want to. I wish I didn't feel the way I do. I just want to see him one last time. One more time. I'll keep saying it. Until he comes. 

Our Last Dance.. The last time I'll see him, because I'm giving him up. 

The cries don't stop. The pain still hurts. Just another person leaving me.

Everyone I love.. they keep leaving. I don't want you to go..