Replaced

Just Erased. He falls for everyone but me. Maybe I'm just in over my head. Waiting for something that will never happen. Am I just wasting all my time. Probably. I've made so many mistakes. Too many too count. All I do is cry. 

I'd just wish. He'd see the part of me I want him to. But I know. It won't happen. 

Why do things never turn out right. I'll never have my happily ever after. At least. It's what I think now. 

Everyday I walk in the streets and think about jumping in front of a car. Just so I could see what would happen. I don't want to die. But my heart, it aches physically everyday. I just wanted him to notice me. 

Who am I trying to fool. Maybe I just deserve this punishment. Even though. I don't know what I did. 

But I wish. He would love me. He would hold me. He would make me smile. In my dreams. But, I know for a fact, none of it will EVER come true. I'm just wasting my time. I wanted him to see that I've tried so hard for him. That I could share my life with him, take his hand, and live. But only in my dreams. Only.. 

I've just been replaced. So what is there to do. I just can't help myself. I miss him. 

Still. I deny that I love him. I don't love anyone. Anyone.