Lonely.

Tay.. He might die.. I can't take the pain of loosing him. I don't.. 

I don't want to loose another person I care so deeply about. 

Everyone that I used to love have been taken from me, walked away, or has died.

So what do I have left. It isn't fair..

Why do I deserve such loneliness.

The pain. The fears. They come back. 

Why.. I feel no love. And It hurts. Every Step I Take. 

Every Time I try to get back up. It just hits me right back down. So.

Why. Why did everyone leave me.

Why did they walk away.

Why did they have to DIE.

Why do I have to be so.. Alone..

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Tay, he's taught me so much too. And now I know about Love. How.

Now I understand that. It wasn't my fault.. It wasn't.

I forgave myself. But Brian. Never Forgave me. Not truely. 

Thank You Tay. Don't Die On Me.. I will Cry. Hard. Just for You <3..