From: Me

To: Andrew. 

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I hate Victor. 

He ditched me as a friend. He just stopped talking to me. 

About the watching them. You don't understand how much it hurts. How even though I know he doesn't mean it. But still. 

Whenever I see him with Cindy, they are so happy, so cheerful. And Its just feels like.

They are rubbing it in my face. That they have to be so happy, that they have to have each other and everything in the world. So close and making out and everything in between. 

And I ignored it for a long time but it just gets to me. How I lost EVERYTHING that I had. That they have EVERYTHING in the world. That they have to MOCK me with their happiness. 

I'm jealous of them. 

And It. ISN'T. FAIR. So call me shallow. Call me whatever you want. Because really.

I'm not obliged to tell you the whole truth. Because I know you would tell. I know you would blab. I know. 

I just HATE. IT. Why can't they be a REGULAR couple, that just holds hands and laugh with their own friends and don't have to be all OVER each other. It's annoying.

I hate it. I hate them for their happiness. I don't feel good for them and I don't want to make this situation any more worse. 

So just drop it. Let me hate them. Let me blame myself. Let Me Cry everytime I see them. Let me CUT myself. 

Cause I know you don't care. I know he doesn't care. I know that NOT TOO MANY PEOPLE DO.

So just leave me be. You don't have to be nosy in my buisness. You don't NEED to know the truth so. Just. Leave Me. Be. Let Me Cut. Let Me Cry. 

Drop it All. Okay. I'll still be your friend, you just don't know who I am. 

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Btw. Yeah. Non-virgin. The guy. Is not a Freshman. Doesn't Go To Lincoln. You don't know him. 

You should not be in my business. You shouldn't know anything about me. 

Drop. All. The. Drama.