I changed my blog link. 

So yeah.

I am depressed. And It's tearing me up inside. It really is. That fucking jerk. He just left me here. After everything. He fucking doesn't care. Why did I believe he would. Why did I trust a jerk. He was so bad to me, it wasn't fair.. 

I thought he cared, but I was so wrong. I was just a toy. Nothing more than that, and I didn't want it to be true, but it is. And Now I'm so depressed I don't know what I can do. 

I am never happy. Never. Ever. I'm always blank, always thinking, and never happy with my life. I can't be. I will never go to a therapist. I will never take anti-depressant pills. I don't know anything. It hurts inside. So much. I don't know what to do anymore. It's tearing me up, ripping me apart. 

And there is no one there again. NO ONE FUCKING WANTS TO HELP. I'm just some side friend right? Some person to tell YOUR problems to, but you dont help ME. So you guys all act like you are there. But you are NOT. I was so wrong about so many things. All I wanted was someone to CARE. But I guess it's too much to ask from the world. 

I. Am. Alone.

And I really.. didn't want it to be this way.