You know how those days that you just feel like crap? Well, today is my day. Maybe it's my pmsing or some shit but I was in a BAD mood today. I just was. I got so easily annoeyd at my friends today I dunno why. Also, all the time I was inside of Westfield, I thought of Brian. Ew. I really, had a whole emo dark thing going on when I was on the bus and it just felt weird. Like I thought about me and Brian and everythign we've been through and one thoguth stuck in my mind. "He wasn't good enough" and to tell the truth. He wasn't. He didn't know how to heal the broken me, how to ever help ME. He didn't. I always saw the me that loved him, loved every part of him, but now. I know that he was that innocent boy, who used to love me, but really, didn't know how I felt. Our relationship wasn't a true one, and thoguh we knew that we loved each other. So once I broke it apart, everything fell, and for the first time in my life. I had to do something about it. When I got the courage, to talk to him again, he still hadn't recovered. So plain and simple. I still do wonder though. Why guys say they don't need help when you KNOW, they do. Oh well.
Other then that, I have been okay.
It really is hard for me to like someone too. I'm picky?
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