Love. It's a game. A wonder exciting game of chance, hardship, emotions, truth, and physical excitement. Soemtimes I really wonder about it. As in, you might know so many people that go through this process, through what they call this emotion. Althoguh people throw those three words are like crazy. Expressing the way you care about someone. It really is, something remarkable. You know, I think I'm here because I've had lots of hardships, lots of bad moments and memories yet, I am one of the strong ones. One of those people that say, enough is enough, and DO something about it, instead of giving into it. Yeah, I may drink sometimes, but I'm not too bad of a person. People always. Always. Go through so much pain, suffering, hide it from everyone while they put on a fake smile to please everyone around them. Even lie to the ones they love the most. But you know. That guilt, pain, hurt, all those horrible emotions, build up, and one bad thign happens, you break. You shatter, into a million pieces. I've said this so many times, and hopefully. At least one person, one person strong enough to deal with it will say, I won't let this happen to me. They stand on their own two feet, through the harsh pain of rejection. Let's talk about Rejection for awhile.
Rejection. This feeling, that you aren't loved, that you are not good enough fro the person who you want to notice you, notice that you exist in some way and they care for you back. Yet once you realize, that your only hope is gone because they DON'T care, you sink further into your emotions, blaming yourself. This, you continue on it, for a long time, depression may have hit and you, still put on that fake smile for others. Btu you know, you can't live you life, dependant on someoen to save you. You CAN'T be a princess, where everyone will give you everything. It doens't work that way. YOU have to take care of yourself. Only You. Once you learn this, learn to help yourself. Your helpign yourself, become something happier, something you thoguht not possible.
Let's go off now. Love. Love is a vry mysterious, weird attraction to someone else. So many people sacrifice themselves for others. Just for the sake of Love and Happiness, although to be honest, I HATE IT. I HATE THE WAY PEOPLE HAVE TO THROW AROUND LOVE. The way that you just have to have your hands all over the person, just put them on a pedestal and live for them. Look. I don't hate love or anything but, there has to be a balance, where you are still YOU. Because, you know that over time, maybe things come up and your love falls apart. Then what, you don't have even yourself left. You wallow into depression, rejection. But there is also a lighter side, where when you feel so close to someone, and you care for them, the only thing you want, is their happiness. But always ask yourself before this, do you want to be trapped in the world of this game? Maybe you should, try something else for awhile. Lay off it for some time, because frankly, you have a LOT of time.
I guess I just wanetd to get that outta my system because I know. Love can bite you, hard. Love is blind, you accidentally fall for someone you know you shouldn't or something else. Accidental love. It really is a mystery. I'm single. I'm free. I dont' think abtou him anymore. I don't love any boy. I'm doing fine. So maybe, just maybe, being single and being carefree not in someone's crush or trap, maybe it is a good thing, or maybe, you just want to feel that care again. It isnt' my choice to say what is right and wrong, but this is my opinon.
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