Oh You.

I want to say goodbye to the past. 

I wanted to talk to him. 

But my heart just skipped and the pain returns. 

I thought I was okay. But I can still draw tears. 

Why can't I do it. Why can't I just say a simple hello. Without my heart exploding. 

It's not that I regret it, I just, don't know why I can't try to start. Is it because I don't want to? 

I took one look at his profile. One look. And Tears were forming in the corners of my eyes and I am still in pain. I wonder why. 

I still wonder if he looks at my blogs. He's moved on. It's actually been one year. 

One year since I met him. I'm still stuck in the position I've been in from the start. I honestly want to patch things up, but I do not think it possible. I guess he still roams in my heart somewhere. 

Oh you. You really are something. Haha. 

How did you captivate my mind with your akward innocent charm. You were always so cute. Always. I guess, you still make me smile, and make me cry, without you ever being here. That part of you still remains. Even though my feelings for you have changed. 

Oh..Haha, Your name. Tell me. Would you speak with me this day? Probably not. It's okay. I guess I'm not ready for you either. Maybe I'll never be.