Hey You.

Shut the fuck up.

I'm so sick of this shit. Why aren't we better? Why arent we GOOD. Yeah. No more fucking fooling around. I am tired of it. I'm trying the best I can, and pushing my limits. I work my ASS off for you guys. Do we get anything? We get. DOUG, yelling at us, telling us we SUCK, because frankly we DO. And I am so fucking tired, of barfing in my mouth every practice. Getting dizzy and almost falling off when I'm paddling. . Why don't I just fucking DIE doing what I love. Oh of course. How thoughtless of me. I wonder why. And when I take these words. I mean it bigtime. Yeah. I mean it. I get fucking angry. You don't KNOW how PISSED I have been at least for a month now. I hate how almost none of you guys talk. You don't have ENERGY. BE A FUCKING MAN. AND SUCK IT UP. LIKE I TRY.

Yeah. Me. I'm sensitive. So I blame myself for everything. I take every word to my heart. I'm also pretty fucking stupid. But I've also had some SHIT. So don't give me any bullshit. That you feel hella bad cause your boyfriend dumped you. Or the guy you like, doesn't like you back. Fuck. You don't know. I swear. Some people just don't know ANYTHING. You fucking USE people for yourself? LOSER. Yeah. I've done my fair share of shit, but I don't tell EVERYONE about it do I? NO. I cover up the scars and people make FUN of it. You don't help me, and even if you say. I know. You don't fucking mean that. "Don't Cut Yourself" Your not stopping me are you? Now are you? No. Exactly. But the thing is that I don't even do THAT anymore. They just REMIND me of my stupidity.

So Why. Why aren't you better. Why aren't you stronger. Why are you so annoying. Why dont people want to listen to you. Why are you so stupid. Why are you filthy. Your a loser. A nobody. Who wants to be friends with YOU. Why arent you GOOD enough. Why can't you be like your brother. Why are you dull. Why aren't you smart. Your so greedy. Your always so jealous.  Why are you so sensitive. Why are you retarded. You Whore. Why do you wanna drink. Why do you wanna have sex again. Why do you cut yourself. Why are you doing all this shit. Why are you so fucking stubborn.

Why. Am I Not Enough.