It's way too sad.
I could understand her feelings, why she felt that way.
I feel. Just like her.
And no one is there to run crying to. So I curl up in a ball. And hurt inside, until I can't feel it anymore. And pretend like nothing is wrong. When I cry at night.
Friends don't ask. Friends don't know.
My throat is choking myself. Because I can't scream, or make a sound.
Inside. I just wanna Die.
Going back to school. Whoopee! I can't wait! :D
Soph yr is gonna rock. SO FUCKING HARD D:<>
I got my second ear piercings today. Fucking awesome.
My bro is moving back home too. Oh man. It gonna be different from now on.
DragonBoat has been taking up most of my time but i LOVE it.
Just Keeping myself happy.
Btw. I'm in a pokemon faze. YEAH. ITS THE FUCKING AWESOMEST SHIT IN THE WORLD.
Depressive mood. Pretty Sad.
So the whole point of this blog is to rant right? Well I am in a fucking bad mood. The whole thing that makes me this way is that, why. Why the fuck does everyone come to me with their problems, ask me a question that I can almost never answer. Of course I care about them, but, wheres my turn.
No one dares to even take a hint, or ask me whats wrong when I am down. It's so fucking hard being alone. I play the strong, single girl who can overcome anything.
Well, Sometimes I say Fuck It. Just to the world and I cry my fucking eyes out, does anyone care? No. Does anyone ask me whats wrong? No. I just sit in my little corner, Fucking Alone.
So whats the point of it all.
All I want is someone to LISTEN to ME. Instead of Myself, LISTENING to everyone else. I'm so tired of it all. Why cant you just see that I am NOT okay when I say I am. Or when I hide my tears, and ask me what is on my mind. Is that so hard?!
Well I guess it is, because no one ever DOES it. I can't wish for everything. I just want someone to tell me I MATTER. That at least I mean something to them. Because I care about other people, should I get the same respect back? I think so. But no, I gotta carry everything.
Its the same fucking reason I NEVER say those words. Because they don't mean SHIT. Why would you tell me that when I know that you don't mean it, and even if you say you do, Prove it to me. You just come to ME for care and comfort, but I never go to anyone. Because I know that no one WANTS to listen.
I'm just Alone.
Sometimes you just wonder about the people from the past.
Skittles showed me this really cool song, that really, is so sad. But sweet at the same time.
Basically saying that, we all don't live forever and even though we may be apart now, when you die, I'll be close behind, following.
It really is sweet. And I really like how inspirational it is, and how that, I've learned much just from thinking over the same things over and over, and learning from my mistakes, and improving myself every step of the way.
I may be different but I am still Me, and I always will be. It's funny because lately I've been so happy and busy I don't need to worry about other problems, and that. From now on I'll take a little time to type what I feel and how I'm doing, instead of always complaining and being so emo.
I'm improving myself and I really can't wait for school, and I hope it'll be a good year, this summer has brightened my life, and I won't forget the past, but I won't let it drag me down. It's nothing to cry about. I'm strong and I go forward, don't look back.
I'm oh so single, rolling with the guys, laughing at the jokes, playing little games. It's nice not to be alone. If love will find me, I'll accept it.
My goal is to gather the strength to face my greatest fear, and to patch things up with Brian. Because it was so hard for me before. But I'll try. One day I'll patch it up, and we can be real friends.
Also it's the end of summer so I am partying my ASS off.
Oh yes, I'm getting my second piercing on Thursday, the cartilage on my Bday. I can't wait (:
I'll talk to you soon Blog. I will.
I cuddled with Dexter (:
We talked about lots of stuff.
Maybe it was just the booze or something but he is super sweet.
Peggy dared us to kiss and I liked it.
I stole his hat too, he gangstuh. ;D
Lolz. So yeah not much else.
Peggy is having a fling with Andy.
Andy loves me and calls me drunkie. He's a buddha.
Bradley is my skittles. He's yummy (: He calls me sexy too.
Life is cool now.
Crispy's horniness rubs off on me. Lol xD
Happiness is a good thing.
You know Phone Sex Sucks. Cause you get really horny and you can't fuck anyone.
Porn may turn you on but it isn't too good.
Regular Sex is awesome.
Buttfucking is not cool >:[
Blowjobs should not last more than 20 minutes.
Eating Her Out Means Lick her.
It's really easy for me to turn a guy on. Haha.
Touch a guys abs real slow.
Masterbating can sometimes be better then Sex depending on the guy.
Kinky shit is fun for both people. Act like a bitch and they'll love it.
Yeah. Talking Dirty is Fun.
